Frith O’Steen

Just a brief post today, as I don’t really have anything very fun or exciting to write about. I do however want to give a major shout out to my mom, as well as all other full time caregivers who are with small children all day long. Wow. I salute you all. I absolutely adore my son, and still feel like I have the opportunity to do the most incredible job in the world. However…I truly do think I may be losing my mind, cheerio by cheerio. Most days I try to get little guy out of the house on some semblance of an errand, just for my own mental health. On days like this where it’s like 100 degrees out, that isn’t so much of an option, so we spend our hours upstairs and downstairs, trying to find new distractions while I attempt to get (not much, as it winds up) stuff done around the house. I think Decker likes the change of pace by going out on errands too, and I imagine a diet of  just mommy all day is a bit boring for him (sort of like if you got to have one of your favorite flavors of ice cream every day - might get monotonous). So here we are, stuck together today, and while he takes his second nap (thank heaven he still takes two naps a day!) I am trying to finish some coherent thoughts and utilizing the time to do a load of laundry, water the garden (which of course needs much work), and whine online.

Much like the Barenaked Ladies swore they’d never write a song complaining about being on the road (the idea being, hey - it’s cliche, and also we are so lucky to be a touring rock band that who are we to complain?), I swore I wouldn’t use this blog thing for griping to the folks out there in the cosmic void. Well - it’s amazing what the ever changing mood swings of a toddler will do to your resolve. He’s a great little kid most of the time, and he’s entitled to have grumpy days (I think maybe it’s why it’s been so trying over the last 48 hours - this is unusual for him). But when he can’t verbally express himself (see post title) and has to rely on body language to tell Mommy what he wants, which he can’t always have (I can’t carry him all day long after all), I imagine it must frustrate him to no end. I know it does me. One sided conversations are sort of not the most stimulating, and thusly I talk Sean’s ear off as soon as he gets home. He doesn’t have to even be listening. Or awake.

On a more positive note though…all it takes is a little time away and I think he and I are back to our old selves again. Looking forward to cooler weather so we can start going out again. Till then - hope this nap’s a long one! I would love to actually do a full job of cleaning the bathroom for once!

vent vent vent…wah wah wah…whatever. ok I’m done now!